Wheels go round and round, you're on my mind.

Here goes a midnight post, brought to you by Buca and Poplar.

I should be asleep right now.  It's not even that late, but late it is.  What in the world has been going on with my life.  I wish I could remember.  It amazes me how fast time goes by when you are enjoying yourself and the world you live in.  I remember thinking how life just stood still in the spring and the first half of the summer this year when I was so...well...heart broken.  I knew that if I kept pressing on at some point it would be good again... but the days just seemed so long.  Now I can't even remember what I've done in a weeks time because everything flies by!   This morning I woke up at 8am, and I honestly can't remember what I did between the hours of 8am and 12pm.

I needed to play trombone today. Did I?  Nope.  Tomorrow?  I've got to make that happen.  Got to.

Part of the reason I didn't play trombone today was because my car broke down last night and is in the shop.  It really is just an excuse.  I mean its not like the music building is super far from my apartment.  It is literally 5 blocks.  An easy 20 minute walk.  I should have gotten off my butt this morning and gone, but whatever...

At least I did something productive today and got a start on my paper for my 19th century seminar.

This semester is coming to an end.  3 concerts, 3 observations, 1 15 page paper, and 1 final are all that stand in the way of me being 3/4 the way done with my masters degree.  That's scary.  Really.  Who in the world would let me get a MM?  I'm so close to being done with school for a hot minute.  I'm really hoping a job opens up for me in the Valley next fall.

It scares me a little bit.  The thought of all the work I'm putting myself through.  What if things don't work out the way I planned them?  But if I never try, I'll never know.

On a different note, lets talk more about my car.  My poor dead bug.  At least it didn't get squashed.  I was on i215 and it just died.  I was at least able to coast onto the side of the road so I wasn't blocking traffic or in danger of being hit.  I got towed...$75 later.  We got it to the VW place just fine.  The VW place called me today and let me know that it will be at least Monday before they can look at it.  I really hope I have a car by Wednesday...

Well that's all for now.  Only a few more days left if November.  Time to put the pedal to the metal.

Love

I really can have it all

Some days I get over whelmed.  Some days I feel stressed to the max; like I'm getting nothing done and going nowhere; and the only thing that keeps me from just quitting is that I simply refuse to allow myself to give up on myself or what I love.

And then, there are days where I feel like I can conquer the world.  Where I can start to see the stars aligning.  Things are falling into place, and I will get to where I'm going.  My friend said it perfectly last night.  She told me that I'm subconsciously worried about failure (which is true).  Then she went on to remind me of something we've all heard a thousand times.  Her message was this, "Put the worries away and stay present and take it day to day.  Today is the tomorrow we worried about yesterday. Stop and enjoy, my dear friend."

How very true.  I think going to bed with that thought in mind made waking up today a world of a difference.  I think I should type that up and put it on my wall somewhere.  I can't promise you tomorrow, but I can do what I can today.  That's all there is to it.  I have dreams.

And those dreams are mine to grasp.  I will get there, but for now I'm going to enjoy today.  It's all about the process.  I know I've blogged about similar things, but I need a reminder for myself from time to time.  I'm doing what I love, I have amazing people in my life, and I have so much to give.  Life is amazing.

Thanks for that reminder last night, Melissa.

I needed it. And with that, BACK to the practice room. =)

Love

Lessons be learned.

Well I learned one very big adult lesson today.

Pay your parking tickets.  I got a parking boot today from the city of Salt Lake.  $456 later...

There goes my ski pass fund.

That's tragic.  But I'll work it out.  That ski pass will be mine.  Count on it.  It's just gonna take a little longer and a little extra work.   Again, I'll work it out.

Things could be worse.  I have two legs, and a place to live.  I'm alive.

Life, it's grand.  = )

I'm starting to feel way better.  I'm forcing myself to stay home.  It's not like I have money to go out and do anything after that ticket! Haha!

Seriously though,  I have got to do something to strengthen my immunity.  My nutrition is great.  I'm queen bee when it comes to that stuff.  My body needs rest, and I've been ignoring it.  I can't believe this semester is almost over.  Time to work smarter, not harder.

Love.

Are we there yet?

Don't take this as me being negative.  I'm a happy girl.  Life is grand.  :)   But I've been sick more this semester than when I taught elementary school.  My immune system is not keeping up with my life and happiness.  It keeps telling me to calm down and not get too excited.

I realize this past week, in my excitement for life, I over did it.  My body is still recovering from being so sick in August and then having surgery in October.  I just wish it wasn't taking so long. My mind is ready to grab life by the horns, but my body just isn't. Frustrating.

It's all good though.  :)   I just need to take better care of myself.

=)

Hi.

My name is Lisa, and I am one happy lady.  

It amazes me at the simple things that make me smile... 

Like simply talking to someone.  

I woke up this morning to snow on the ground.  It snowed during the football game tonight.  It was pretty crazy, actually.  The field was white during pre game.  Crazy!  I was glad I wore my hunter boots today.  That was a good life choice.  

I can't wait to go skiing.  The snow makes me so excited. I've really got to go get my Alta pass soon!  

Well, that's all for now. 

Love. 

Clean. Simple. Honest.

Sometimes I never know what to say here.  So many good things swirling around in my brain right now.  

I made some super yummy things this week.  Egg white omelets, frittatas, butternut squash soup, and black bean eggplant veggie burgers.  The good/bad thing about living alone and cooking for myself is that when I cook something I have a LOT of left overs.  And that's great, cause I'm good at budgeting with groceries...But it is also not great cause that means I'm eating the same thing over and over and over again. Like my delicious soup, I wound up getting 5 servings off.  So eating the same soup meal after meal gets a little old. And my veggie burgers?  (Which by the way cost a whopping $4 to make) Well I wound up having enough for 8 burgers.  That's 8 meals of veggie burger patty, unless I freeze some.  Soup freezes just fine, but I'm not so sure about eggplant black bean veggie burgers.   I love the fact that you can open my fridge and pantry and all you find are clean, natural foods.  Even my peanut butter is straight up ground peanuts. 

Basketball season started this weekend. Well the NCAA basketball season that is...  I am so excited for basketball season this year.  It really is a good time working the Utah women's basketball games.  

I have so so so much to do over the next month.  My goal is to get a jump on that this and next week. The ski resorts open very soon and I'd much rather be done with my school stuff before I start hitting the slopes hard this season.  My goal is 100 days this season.  I can totally rock that. :)   Might be the only season I have the opportunity to do that, especially if I get a teaching job next May.  

Speaking of jobs....Scary.  Let's not talk about that now...

I really enjoyed church at K2 today.  The message was awesome.  So the message wasn't on Romans 5:7-8, but Dave Nelson shared those verses as apart of the message and they really hit home.  I just found them really awesome.   The Message translation has them as:  We can understand someone dying for a person worth dying for, and we can understand how someone good and noble could inspire us to selfless sacrifice, but God put his love on the line for us by offering his Son in sacrificial death while we were of no use whatever to him.  

I figured out what I'm doing for my Christmas gifts this year.  Super excited about that.  

I got brown boots today.  Super excited about that too. 

Well I should probably go to bed.  I don't know what to think about this entire post, but whatevesies.  

Love.  

On a positive note...

It's snowing!!!!!!!

And in my sheer brilliance I added a covered parking spot at my apt building to my rent today.  = )

Cynical

Somedays I just want to quit.  Today is one of them.

Clearly I won't, but sometimes I just feel like the stress isn't worth it.  I torture myself, and days like today I don't even know why.

I'm trying real hard not to get my feelings hurt. I just need to breathe....

Adieu

I've met so many people in my 25 years.  Literally, thousands of people.  It amazes me the people that come in and out of your life.  Acquaintances, friends, lovers, enemies, teachers, coworkers, and the list goes on.  Think of how many people you pass on a daily basis.  They all have their own stories to tell.  They all have something to teach you, if you only open yourself to receiving that lesson.

Goodbyes aren't easy.  In any aspect of life.  Like I said, I've met a lot of people. I've also said a lot of goodbyes.  Two souls that touched my life left this earth the past few weeks.  Alvin Bridges and Aunt Ruby.  Alvin worked hard and did everything he could for his loved ones.  He lived a long life.  Aunt Ruby was a beautiful human being. She was kind, loving, and peaceful.  She never complained.  Even when she had breast cancer, and then lymphoma.  She just kept on loving.  I'll never forget the lessons I learned spending time with her and the other great aunts and uncles in small town Gantt, Alabama as a little girl.  Making preserves, helping sew quilt squares and watching the old show Dallas until all hours.

Although it is the only completely final goodbye, death is not the only farewell that we deal with.  We've all seen relationships end.  In this past year I've had multiple relationships end... someone moved across country, someone chose to stop being a friend completely and removed themselves from the equation, someone decided I wasn't worth the time, and there are other relationships that I had a hand in ending myself.  People come and go, but what is it that you as an individual take from the situation?  Did you learn what you could from the other soul that just so happened to be apart of this crazy thing we call life?  Did you show them kindness and goodness?

Today was a day to say farewell for a little while.  We'll see each other again, this is certain.  I read this quote the other day and couldn't agree more, "No lapse of time or distance


of place can lessen the friendship of those who are 


truly persuaded of each other's worth." 


It's true.  The relationships in your life that are real hold this truth.  Some of my best friends on this earth live thousands of miles from me, but when we get to hang it is like nothing ever changed between us.  The future is unknown, and that is the  scary and exciting part about it.  I don't know what will happen over the next few months, but I sure do have something to look forward to in the future.

Live. Be genuine and honest.  Don't be afraid to love.  Learn what you can and enjoy the moment.  This life only happens once.  Simply live.