Adieu

I've met so many people in my 25 years.  Literally, thousands of people.  It amazes me the people that come in and out of your life.  Acquaintances, friends, lovers, enemies, teachers, coworkers, and the list goes on.  Think of how many people you pass on a daily basis.  They all have their own stories to tell.  They all have something to teach you, if you only open yourself to receiving that lesson.

Goodbyes aren't easy.  In any aspect of life.  Like I said, I've met a lot of people. I've also said a lot of goodbyes.  Two souls that touched my life left this earth the past few weeks.  Alvin Bridges and Aunt Ruby.  Alvin worked hard and did everything he could for his loved ones.  He lived a long life.  Aunt Ruby was a beautiful human being. She was kind, loving, and peaceful.  She never complained.  Even when she had breast cancer, and then lymphoma.  She just kept on loving.  I'll never forget the lessons I learned spending time with her and the other great aunts and uncles in small town Gantt, Alabama as a little girl.  Making preserves, helping sew quilt squares and watching the old show Dallas until all hours.

Although it is the only completely final goodbye, death is not the only farewell that we deal with.  We've all seen relationships end.  In this past year I've had multiple relationships end... someone moved across country, someone chose to stop being a friend completely and removed themselves from the equation, someone decided I wasn't worth the time, and there are other relationships that I had a hand in ending myself.  People come and go, but what is it that you as an individual take from the situation?  Did you learn what you could from the other soul that just so happened to be apart of this crazy thing we call life?  Did you show them kindness and goodness?

Today was a day to say farewell for a little while.  We'll see each other again, this is certain.  I read this quote the other day and couldn't agree more, "No lapse of time or distance


of place can lessen the friendship of those who are 


truly persuaded of each other's worth." 


It's true.  The relationships in your life that are real hold this truth.  Some of my best friends on this earth live thousands of miles from me, but when we get to hang it is like nothing ever changed between us.  The future is unknown, and that is the  scary and exciting part about it.  I don't know what will happen over the next few months, but I sure do have something to look forward to in the future.

Live. Be genuine and honest.  Don't be afraid to love.  Learn what you can and enjoy the moment.  This life only happens once.  Simply live.  
   

Cause it goes along with my blog.

My dad shared this video with me.   Enjoy!


Life is Like Coffee.

Blogging during class?

Why yes I am.

I have been an awful student the past week.

I can see it as it is happening.  Its almost like looking from the outside and seeing myself flounder and I just can't do anything about it.  

Well I can do something about it, and I am.... I just think it might have been too late for this week.

I have barely practiced trombone this week.  I've played every day.  But playing every day and practicing every day are not the same.

I'm getting back on the practice band wagon, but I fear it is too little too late for my lesson this week.  I really need to stop allowing myself to make excuses to not practice everyday.

I could make excuses, or I could just take a step forward.

Besides my lack of practicing and being a pretty poor student, life is going great!

My tailbone is feeling so much better.  I think in another week or so I'll be good to go. (crossing my fingers anyway).  I miss sleeping on my back...    Maybe that's why I've been so tired lately.  I usually sleep on my back and I haven't been able to for almost a month.

I've been hanging out with this some super cool folks lately.  :)

Today I woke up and couldn't stop smiling.   Definitely have a perma-grin going right now.  :)  

It is definitely a good feeling.

Not gonna lie.  

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Why do we allow ourselves to continue to love people who completely destroy us?  This is a question I will ask God when I'm dead and gone. . .  Just hearing one song takes me all the way back there, and  I don't even know why I allow myself to do that.

Feeling bet-tah

I'm feeling so much better.   I wish my drain was being pulled today and not tomorrow.  Its super annoying.  I don't really feel like I can really go anywhere cause of the studied thing.   At least it is getting pulled tomorrow! Hoping I'll feel all normal again (well mostly normal anyway) after this drain comes out tomorrow.  Its annoying.

So being stuck on the couch resting, clearly Im watching a lot of tv.  The walmart commercial that has the degree deodorant ad with the tall woman and short man is about the most annoying commercial ever.  They show it like a thousand times an hour.  Dumb!!!

So this morning I was feeling way better.  I took under the task of peeling a cubing a butternut squash. Well...and hour later!  Those things aren't that easy to peel.  It might help if I had a veggie peeler.  Mom and I decided to make this crockpot chili for dinner tonight that was in the September Oxygen magazine.  The chili calls for 1 cubed butter but squash (4 cups), 1 onion, two 28 oz cans fire roasted tomatoes, 1 can of black beans,  4 cloves garlic, 1 pound cubed top round beef, and lots of seasonings (cumin, oregano, bay leaf, cayenne, etc).    I'm hoping it will be super good.  It has to cook in the crock pot for 8 hours.  Here's hoping it is yummy!!!  

I can't wait to get in the practice room and get some work done on my trombone.

I can NOT believe it is already October 10. This year is FLYING.   What in the world am I going to do in a few months when I'm not in school anymore.  Dang.

2 days later

Well its over.   The surgery wasn't too bad.  I'm really impressed with the University hospital.  We barely sat in the waiting room at all.  Clearly I was totally knocked out during the surgery, but when I woke up I couldn't stop shaking.  They had to give me a separate shot to get me to stop shaking.  That was weird.  We left the hospital about 6 hours after we got there.  Super crazy.   I'm pretty just stuck chillin for a few days.  Yesterday I laid on the couch all day, then some folks came over and we watched Star Wars.  Today I walked around a little bit. Might have over done it, but it's all good. Back to the couch again... We watched Bridesmaids today.  I saw that when it was in the theaters but I wanted to watch it again.  I'm pretty bored and pretty out of it...  

Snip Snip

Surgery today.  Not allowed to eat after midnight last night.  I feel like I'm doing alright with that.  I may or may not have over indulged after 5pm last night.  I picked my mom up from the airport and we went to Red Rocks to eat.  I had a warm goat cheese salad and southwestern tomato soup.  Here is the description not the salad: Goat cheese baked in our wood-fired oven, served with sliced tomatoes, pears and organic spring mix with rosemary pesto oil    


Yum! Right?

I had planned to go to Village Inn at like 11:15 to eat again before I couldn't eat today, but I'm old (haha) and was exhausted by 10pm.  Made a turkey sandwich and chips and salsa instead at home.

I'm hoping the recovery time for this thing doesn't take too long.  We'll see.   EEK!